The Queen of Spades

Fri, 01 Feb 2008 18:14:36 GMT

word to ya mutha.....word bitch!

ARGGGGGG!!!!!!

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 23:40:10 GMT

uncle sam will feel my fury, i will rip off his nuts, slit his throat and taste his blood!!!! ok kids i made $27,000 dollars last year and they took about 6,500 of that our of my checks and they raped me really good! i get back a whole 300 dollars from what they stole from me and thats not the best part i owe the state money because i'm not poor in there eyes! FUCKING BASTARDS! GRRRR I HATE THEM ALL!!!!!!!!!! plus i got Cornall Sanders as my tax pro, and he kept fucking everything thing up because he was retarded and i spent like an hr and a half in there and he kept making me feel like his fuck ups were my fault!!!

giggle

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 04:58:26 GMT

so things are still going good, i am moving back to vinny after the holidays...sometime...probably around tax season, me anf Josh are getting a place together, YAY! no more fighting for alone time!

Sat, 24 Nov 2007 04:54:23 GMT

so things are going wonderfully, the boy is amazing and i think my parents are starting to be decent human beings.... who would have guessed? mom told me this morning that her and dad are paying for my car to get fixed ( i hit a curb and bent one of my rims) and paying off my computer(a good $800) for no apparent reason, i would say either they helped my brother fix his blazer( its been having some problems i know) they feel guilty ( for telling me i am going to hell and being jerks) or its an early x-mas present( which i doubt but skill and option) hmmm idk.....

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 08:42:08 GMT

so...uh...uhm....... i just came out to my dad..... he didn't freak out like i thought he would.... but i still got the disapproving look.... i am really not sure how to feel about this.... part of me wants to bawl my eyes out for knowing that i hurt him for just being me, the other part wants to throw a party for actually doing it and the feeling of relief it brings to just be myself, but now i can actually be happy...truly happy with myself and let myself be happy with Josh and know that i don't have this big secret hanging around like a dark cloud, still really confused on how to handle this..... he didn't yell or anything, but i don't think he will ever look me in the eye again... i need to go pass out...

~Justin

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 18:08:51 GMT

I'm officially taken..... now how to break it to the parental units..........thats a problem for another day....

food for thought

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 03:54:38 GMT

so.... things with the boy have gone to great things, not official yet but moving there quickly! talks about moving in together! possibly after X-mas, Fuck holidays and i think i am done here!

Gabrielle - "Dreams"

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 15:56:23 GMT

"Dreams"

Move a step closer you know that I want you
I can tell by your eyes that you want me too
Just a question of time I knew we'd be together
And that you'd be mine I want you here forever

Do you hear what I'm saying gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you're here but I know that you're real
I know what I want and baby it's you
I can't deny my feelings because they are true

[Chorus:]
Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you gotta be strong

Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you gotta be strong

I've seen you sometimes on your own and in crowds
I knew I had to have you my hopes didn't let me down
Now you're by my side and I feel so good
I've nothing to hide don't feel that I ever could

Do you hear what I'm saying gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you're here but I know that you're real
I know what I want and baby it's you
Can't deny my feelings because they are true

Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you gotta be strong

Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you gotta be strong

I'm not making plans for tomorrow let's live for tonight
I know I want you baby so hold me so tight
Put your arms around me you make me feel so safe
Then you whisper in my ear that you're here to stay

Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you gotta be strong

sad :(

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 15:25:54 GMT

no one txt me for a bit, i dropped my phone last night when i was getting out of my car and cracked the screen so i can only see half of it :( AT&T is sending me a new one, it should be here friday of saturday, so after then it will be ok, gosh i suck and i wasn't even drunk or nothin!!! lol

campin trip on!!!

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 04:22:25 GMT

so me and j boo talked, my cousin has a place by the river here near Carlisle and it is perfect, secluded, back to nature, we decided that Sept 28,29,and 30 (Friday,Saturday,Sunday) is good, if interested please leave me a comment or call me, i think you all have my cell number if not its, 812-899-0129, obeetaybee?

~Justin

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 07:31:56 GMT

so i got like 7 inches cut off my hair..... its too short for my liking now, but it will grow back with time.... i guess :(

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 02:42:55 GMT

so... whats everyone been up to? me? not working for a change, its been nice, i needed a vacation! it has been wonderful!!!!!!! i can not wait till next Friday, Jessica, Harrison, and I are venturing to the queer bar in TH, its going to be a blast! me and jess went not too long ago and had a smashing time! this time we need a camera tho!

i think i am going to Boonville to visit my bonus mom on wednesday and probably stay the night if the cats don't get to me! it should be some good times, it sucks only having off 2 weeks from one job, so many things i wanna do, so many people i wanna see, yet so very little time!

well that was my update!

PS: if anyone would like to go with us on Friday let me know, everyone is welcome, only draw back is you have to be 21 :( sorry not my choice.....

love, peace, and chicken grease!

~J

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 06:25:25 GMT

Go through your DVD collection. Pick fifteen titles. Put each one in your computer and do a capture from the first few seconds of a chapter. Post said captures and let others guess the titles.

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7.
8.9.
10.
11.12.
13.
14.15.1

help!

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 00:02:36 GMT

SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW TO DO AN LJ CUT!

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 23:57:49 GMT

so... the big day is coming up on Saturday, kinda scared but OK in general, i have been pretty lazy this week, i took leave from KCARC, today is my totally lazy day, i had softball practice yesterday and i am extremely sore, i was watching this thing on IFC, call fabulous, the role of gays and lesbians in cinema, it makes wanna go make a gay movie, if anyone is with me let me know! i also want to this this movie or read the book or both! go to this site and tell me what you think!

http://www.filmfreakcentral.net/screenreviews/malanoche.htm

its called Mala Noche, i think i will love it!

cho

~Justin

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 04:19:07 GMT

someone brought in a 6yr old boy by the name of Jayce into the nursing home i work at today, it was his grandma, he was convulsing, he stopped breathing, my mom and one of the other nurse by the name of Linda preformed CPR on him trying to save his life until the ambulance could get there, the EMS got there and took him the the hospital,....he died later, i started bawling my eyes out......

Tue, 15 May 2007 04:14:49 GMT

life....bleh.....work....bleh.....internet....bleh...need i say more?

Wed, 09 May 2007 00:05:10 GMT

so.... got back from indy today, such fun we had, i am proud to report that i haven't had a headache in 3 days!!! WHOOT! we meet this really cool person while getting our nails done, from this point forward she shall be refered to as Indy Lauren, she was awesome, she showed us around and told us next time we venture up there we can stay with her, KICK ASS! i hope nicole had as good of a time as i did, minus a small detail or two.... anyway so yeah, good times, i hope Jessica did ok on her roadie!

XoXo

~justin

meh

Fri, 04 May 2007 02:56:24 GMT

i wish i had some amazing things to report....alas i do not, i have been working like a slave for very little gain, i'm tired and over stress.... BUT!!!!! i am leaving for indy on sat!! yay, but as usual when i plan something, shit doesn't go right, not even alittle, so yeah. i'm a bit shitty, but i will get over it, as usual......

~fin~

to you...jerkface

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 03:49:34 GMT

Lately I find myself
Putting on the same clothes everyday
Trying to recapture
The way it went
And I find myself
Crying in my bed
Lying like I'm dead
I'm crazy in my head
And oh, I know

That the days run
And my heart is black
And my soul is lost in a maze of hate

(Chorus)
I don't wanna feel this hurt
I don't wanna feel this pain
I don't wanna be in silence but you took my words away
I don't wanna be inside
I don't wanna be alone
But I know I will be on my own, my own
Oh, on my own

Lately I find myself
Sleeping alone with my phone
Hoping to hear you voice say
That I'm coming home
And I find myself
Rearranging my thoughts
Reversing this heart
Returning being from
And I know

That the days run
And my heart is black
And my soul is lost in a maze of hate

Chorus 1x

How am I gonna freeze tomorrow
When it doesn't seem fair
And you let people discover such sorrow
And you don't even care

And I don't wanna feel this hurt
And I don't wanna feel this pain

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 14:57:41 GMT

first day off in years so it seems, and i want to go get my hair re-dyed, no one will answer their phones dammit!!!!!!!

nobody likes me, everyone hates me, i guess i will just go eat worms

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 08:10:22 GMT

wow you know i guess it has been proven true, i suck as a friend and i can not do anything right, i am sorry i work my ass off to get myself lined out, i am sorry that i suck, i am sorry that i only get 4 hrs of sleep a night if i am lucky, i am sorry i have 2 jobs and i am sorry with the exception of one day that its been almost 2 months since i have had a day off, i am sorry i am so strapped for cash i don't have $20 extra dollars, I'M JUST SO FUCKING SORRY I CAN NOT PLEASE EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the hell that is called this week

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 04:52:37 GMT

OK so... where to start... i got to see Nicole on Thursday, i was so very happy! but that is also where the hell starts.. i got a promotion to team-leader on Tuesday, signed my papers on Wednesday, and unexpectedly got the pager (clarification pager = death) i was also scheduled at my other job on weds and fri, well some stupid fucker no called no showed on Thursday night for a midnight, i was asleep for all of 2 hrs and that stupid fucking pager goes off, i open one eye and look at it half asleep, i call them back and they inform me of the worst news i could every get, Pat the fuck face didn't show and as a bonus his phone was disconnected so i couldn't call and bug him, i know what some of you are thinking, "you are calling this guy a fuck face for over sleeping?!?!?" no i am not, we have a long and very bumpy past, the first day i worked with him her called me a fucking faggot, most of you could get away with that yes, but not if you said it like he did, but i drift away from the rant, back to the story, i left and got there about 1 am, he never called of showed up... i was fit to be tied, i left as soon as relief got there, i got all 8 people out of bed, dressed, teeth brushed and hair fixed, i am super man, all before 6 am, yelp i am good, and i left not to go home to bed like i was aching for oh so badly, but to go to my other job and work till 2:30pm, personally i discount the 2 hrs of sleep i did get cuz it was more like 1, i had been up since 6 am the day before, so....... i didn't get to go to bed till 4pm on Friday afternoon, 6am Thursday morning till 4 pm on Friday with Justin with no sleep, lets sit and examine this for a moment... i went home and sleep from 4pm till 7 am the next day....what did i wake up to you may ask? THE STUPID FUCKING PAGER!!!! it is the devil, some trying to call in 40 mins before their shift..... for those of you who are not employed by KCARC we have a strict 5 hr heads up on call ins, and i was actually going to be nice and go in for this dumb bitch even though she violated this rule, but i could not get a hold of her, she showed up at work, she paged at 7:11am and didn't call me back till after 11....WTF! stupid people!!! GRRR and if it goes off tonight someone will die!!!! DIE DIE DIE!!!!!

if you have read this all, leave a comment as kudos for you!

on a lighter note, nighties i am going to bed!

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 04:46:55 GMT

just so everyone is clear and warned, WORKING TWO JOBS SUCK SOME SERIOUS BALLS!!!... that is all

ode to boredom

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 01:02:08 GMT

so Denny's nite at 10:30, i am sad i can not attend, for the lack of money and the sheer fact i have to work in the morning, grrr curse you the man, i want to smack you down! but such is life! mine is totally confusing and frustrating, so many opportunities so little faith in something that could actually go my way, i hate it, plus this lovely feeling of guilt that plagues my existence isn't the best for my behavior... *shrugs* lets just see what happens shall we?